EMOTIONS REVEALED <33

:D HALO HALO

2008-09-08T01:34:00.000-07:00

* hate is easy. but LOVE takes courage.

BOOREED. haha. wala akong maisip na itopic dito sa blog ko.
well, parang meron. BOREDOM! haha. ewan ko. people (like me) get bored easily.
totoo un! ung tipong wala ka na talagang magawa sa buhay.
ung halos lahat nagawa mo na tapos hindi mo alam ung gagawin mo ulit.
siya nga pla. may ng'suggest skin na gawin kong advice column tung blog ko!
waa. eeh. paano yun? 'di ako marunong mg'bigay ng mga advices.
well. sa totoo lang. people talk to me when they have problems kse gusto nila ng advice.
eeh. i super try my best naman para ma gumaan ung pakiramdam nila! kaya aun.
i listen to their problems then i share lahat ng mga naiisip ko o narereact. :) and aun!
so far, magaganda naman resulta doon sa mga binibigyan ko ng advices.
and they thank me alot kse tinulungan ko raw sila. whoa. flattered! >:)

BOW :)

:)

2008-08-17T20:12:00.000-07:00

wow.

never expected him to be like that. haha.
you know who you are. :)
well, yeah. true. i never did know that he would do that.
and achi said that i changed him.
changed him into a new person, well maybe not into a new person ,
but i think and i believe that i changed a part of him, his attitude perharps.
and, yeah i have to tell the truth even if it hurts though.
i felt like i'm carrying a burden because he was avoiding me and i felt that the whole world turned against me. i know that you guys don't get my point but to tell you the truth,
im okay with it now. he apologized to me and i completely understand him.
hey! everybody has their reasons right? and i know, he has his own too.
whew! what a relief. only achi knows how i really feel about everything that's happening to me . and i thank her for being there whenever i need help. and i also thank him, for without him .
i wouldn't have known achi, my sister. maybe not by blood but by heart.
uie, thanks ha? :P

now i'm happy. so so happy. not that i'm head over heels with him or something like that
but i'm happy because i didn't lose a friend and actually i gained another one.
don't misinterpret all these scribbles that i'm telling you. it's not what you think it is .
i'm more concern of the friendship that we've shared.
even though it's been around for only a while, but i know that it would last. :D

"just live life the way it should be lived" .

IRONY .

2008-08-15T23:23:00.000-07:00

i can't help it but to cry and ask why?
but then, you choose to stay away .
i know the reason behind but i don't understand .
do you really need to stay away ? that's what i keep on asking .
well, the truth is . i understand that you need your space .
because you don't want anyone to be hurt especially her .
i know that it may hurt on your side too .
but please, save the friendship we have.
i agree that you are caught in between . i know that .
i understand .
i appreciate it that you don't want me to be hurt .
but see ? that's when irony takes place.
you don't want me to be hurt but your staying away .
it's okay if you don't consider me
as one of your chatmates or buddies anymore . but please ..

SAVE THE FRIENDSHIP . :[

SOMEONE?

2008-08-01T04:36:00.000-07:00

i've been sick of waiting for someone to be with me.
someone who would love me for who i am .
not for something that they want .
i want him to be someone who would really stand up
and be proud that i'm a part of his life.
someone that is not emotionally paralyzed .
someone who is not too sensitive .
someone who is right . but, not perfect .
i like a boy who is imperfect in his own special way .
i like him to be perfectly imperfect .

hey. no more fantasies . let's go back to reality .
people are sooo emotionally paralyzed .
they don't feel any feelings. i mean, well .. they feel feelings for themselves.
but a single inch of emotions from another is nothing for them .
they are soooo errr. x_X it really bothers me when people are like that .
i wish they would ... GROW UP !

wanna know what my heart looks like?
it's beaten, bruised and crushed into tiny little pieces .
i know that no one would come and fix it .
but atleast .. someone would mend and replace all this hatred i have inside of me .
and i know that someone would come soon :)
soon enough before i lose myself .
i know that someone is here .
here in this world .. waiting to be known by a heart like mine .

"if you love someone, and they break your heart.
don't give up on love .. have faith . restart . just hold on" .

i'm sick and fed up of waiting but i'm not giving up.
i'm holding on . i'm not going to let go .

- stefoii :)

WHAT'S IT GONNA BE?

2008-07-20T01:10:00.000-07:00

it's hurting me inside knowing that i like you but then you like her.
GEEZ. don't you know, that whenever i'm talking to you ..
I feel like crying and giving up. because i don't know what to do anymore.
I'm losing my mind. I feel like the whole world is against me already.
I know you may think that I'm being crazy or I'm taking things way too far.
But i want you to know, that even though you like her.
Even though she's way too perfect and I'm nowhere near perfection.
Even though I don't fit your standards.
Even though you shared something from the past.
I need you to know that I will always be here being your friend.
Waiting silently. I just wanna thank you for everything you've done.
For cheering me up, When i'm blue. and giving me company when I'm lonely.
Thanks for everything. I know that it would really hurt inside. But you know what hurts more?
It's the fact that someday .. somehow i would move on. But then, Your the one falling for me.
i know it may seem awkward. but you know I never want that to happen.
Im soo confused already. So please, Make up your mind.

WHAT'S IT GONNA BE? me or her ? :(

A POEM I MADE DURING FILIPINO CLASS .

2008-06-27T03:11:00.000-07:00

haha . magtatagalog na muna ako . :) comment lang kayo kung nakakarelate kayo aa? thanks .

"Kung Alam mo Lang"

Sa isang sulok, Ako'y nakatunganga
Iniisip at pinapangarap ka,
Hinihiling kay Bathala
na sana tayo ay magkasama .

Hindi mo lang alam na iniibig kita
Ang puso ko'y tumitibok kapag nakikita ka .
Tuwing dumadaan ako'y natataranta
Hindi alam kung anong gagawin kapag nasisilayan ka .

Mahal kita, Oo inaamin ko na .
Alam kong hindi kapani-paniwala ang aking nadarama .
Sana madama mo na ikaw lang ang nag-iisa
sa puso ko at sa huling hantungan pa .

Manhid ka ba o nagbubulag-bulagan lang?
Ginagawa ko na ang lahat para mapansin mo lang .
Nagdadalawang isip kung ako'y mahal mo rin ba .
Sawa na akong maghintay at umasa pa .

ORIGINAL MASTERPIECE BY STEFII x_X

THE NIGHT SHE MET HIM.

2008-05-20T19:02:00.000-07:00

OK. SO, HERE IT GOES. IT'S APRIL 18TH OF 2008. YEAA. MY BIRTHDAY.
SO, AS USUAL I INVITED SOME OF MY FRIENDS. I MEAN CLASSMATES TO BE EXACT AND ONLY 2 CAME. o.O AND I ALSO INVITED MY COUSINS. I INTRODUCED ONE OF MY COUSINS TO THIS CLASSMATE. LET'S JUST CALL HIM "BOY" . OK, SO I INTRODUCE THIS "GIRL" TO "BOY" AND YEAA. THEY WERE LIKE . NICE MEETING YOU AND STUFF. SOO, AS THE PARTY GOES ON. I HAVE THIS FEELING THAT MY COUSIN WAS LIKE. INLOVE WIF THIS BOY. BUT, I DIDNT ASKED HER YET. I DONT WANT HER TO GET MAD AND STUFF.

AFTER THE PARTY, ALL MY CLASSMATES WERE LIKE GOING HOME NOW. AND AFTER THAT BOY LEFT. I SAW MY COUSIN GIGGLING AND LAUGHING. BIG DEAL?! NONE. IT'S REALLY UNUSUAL FOR HER TO LAUGH LIKE THAT. AND YEAA. BY THAT LAUGH, I THINK SHE LIKES SOMEONE.

AS TIME GOES BY, MY COUSIN IS STILL GIGGLING AND LAUGHING LIKE THAT.
AND THEN, ONE TIME. I JUST FELT LIKE MY COUSIN IS HIDING SOMETHING FROM ME. I MEAN, SHE TELLS ME SECRETS AND I TELL HER MINE TOO. SOO YEAA. I WAS REALLY SHOCKED THAT SHE DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER TO TELL ME A WORD ABOUT ALL THOSE GIGGLING AND STUFF. ONE NIGHT, AT A PHOTO EXHIBIT. SHE TOLD ME THAT THE BOY WAS CRUSHING ON HER. AND SWITCH SIMS JUST TO TEXT AND TALK TO HER. O.o HOW WEIRD ISNT IT? MOVING ON, I WAS REALLY SHOCKED ABOUT WHAT SHE TOLD ME. MY CLASSMATE IS CRUSHING ON HER. :O! I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY THAT TIME. SO YEAA. WHEN WE ARRIVED HOME, I ASKED HER SO MANY QUESTIONS ABOUT HOW HE SAID IT TO HER. AND STUFF LIKE THAT. IM NOT JEALOUS OR SUMTHING. BUT IM JUST TRYING TO TELL MY COUSIN THAT SHE SHOULD BE ALERT. MAYBE SOMETIME SHE WOULD FALL FOR HIM BUT HE WOULD LIKE DITCH HER. AND JUST PLAY WIF HER. SO, I STILL WATCH THE MOVES OF MY COUSIN.

I DIDNT SAY THAT MY CLASSMATE IS LIKE BAD OR SUMTHING. I WAS SAYING THAT SHE SHOULD WARN HER SELF NOT TO FALL EASILY TO HIM. <33

LOVE IS LIKE MAGIC BUT MAGIC CAN SOMETIMES BE AN ILLUSION. AGREE?!