i've been sick of waiting for someone to be with me.
someone who would love me for who i am .
not for something that they want .
i want him to be someone who would really stand up
and be proud that i'm a part of his life.
someone that is not emotionally paralyzed .
someone who is not too sensitive .
someone who is right . but, not perfect .
i like a boy who is imperfect in his own special way .
i like him to be perfectly imperfect .

hey. no more fantasies . let's go back to reality .
people are sooo emotionally paralyzed .
they don't feel any feelings. i mean, well .. they feel feelings for themselves.
but a single inch of emotions from another is nothing for them .
they are soooo errr. x_X it really bothers me when people are like that .
i wish they would ... GROW UP !

wanna know what my heart looks like?
it's beaten, bruised and crushed into tiny little pieces .
i know that no one would come and fix it .
but atleast .. someone would mend and replace all this hatred i have inside of me .
and i know that someone would come soon :)
soon enough before i lose myself .
i know that someone is here .
here in this world .. waiting to be known by a heart like mine .

"if you love someone, and they break your heart.
don't give up on love .. have faith . restart . just hold on" .

i'm sick and fed up of waiting but i'm not giving up.
i'm holding on . i'm not going to let go .